Less winning and more about Losing

Winning feels great, always. No matter how petty the awards are, it never comes in the way of celebrating that happiness which comes with winning. Obviously, we all want to win. 

Losing is a little different. You won't certainly feel happy but feeling sad is actually an option, not a compulsion. This certainly isn't applicable to you if you are one of those hardworking people who took school grades seriously and made sure(or tried your best) that your rank in class never exceeded the number of stumps on a cricket field. This is applicable for people like me, who were just satisfied with a normal carefree childhood with grades that were enough to drag us onto the next class. In the eyes of this society, not winning is equivalent to losing. While winning is a quantity which is measured only by grades, money, properties and such visible things. Since it'd be unfair to presume that all of us share the same mentality, i will just excuse you all from this rant. So, for people like us me, losing is just another part of the race. I try to participate- sometimes i am good, sometimes i am bad, sometimes i fail and some times, well i do manage to win. I don't have much problem with any of them. Sab chalta hai. The unproven fact that remains silent and also the main reason behind this attitude is that one never gets back what one strives, sweats and prays for. Also, there are times when you'll get much more than what you deserved and/ or asked for. But, do they really cancel each other out over the course of time? I don't think so. Actually, they don't. 

I don't know the purpose of this post but since i have kissed this topic, i'll just add a little more insight to this phenomena. The People. Yes, for the people who are watching cum judging you, life is amazingly simple. Let me tell you why and i don't think many will disagree:

1. When you'll succeed, they will tell you that it was all God's grace and love that you managed it. 
2. When you'll succeed continuously, against their expectations, they will tell you that your luck line is stronger than Lakshman Rekha. They'll decorate you with adjectives such as Bright, Fast, Achiever and Intelligent. They'll also make you feel that you settled for less and that you were satisfied with the moon even though plenty of stars were up for collection.
3. When you fail, God goes on a vacation to Goa and all that you are left with is the lack of hard-work, dedication, commitment, effort and hunger. It all comes down to you. 
4. When you fail continuously, they'll say that it was expected and there is nothing you can do. You are lost and good for nothing. That, based on your track record, which in their cheap sense of life, is based on the marks you get, money you earn, size of your house, brand of your car, dowry you got and such petty things. 

Life is so simple for them, eh? Judging and weighing things, even emotions, huh!

Basically, people suck, most of them. I don't know how they weigh their emotions and passions. I guess, it all comes down to these parameters only for them. I tend to feel sorry for them but as soon as i see them happy with what they have got, it baffles me and instead i realize, at the end of the day, they are happy with their life and their thinking, then why should i bother. What the heck!

Let's face life. Let's do what we do the best, let's live. What has to be done, needs to be done. For everything else, you'll always have time. Cheers, to life, to people and to the bitch they both try to be at times!

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To Kill a Genuine Expectation?

I don't mind people. I don't mind that they have opinions. Actually, different human beings have different opinions and this creates a lot of confusion. The worst part, opinion of the Majority is what actually counts and the rest us are left  abandoned and labeled as a Minority. 

Coming back to the point, i was always amused by the pretty famous quote by someone that goes something like this 

"Never expect anything from anyone, because expectation always hurts."

This never made sense to me. The first part never and the latter, a few times. But I still never fail to expect things from OTHERS. 

There are 2 aspects of this debate. 'Who are the OTHERS' and 'What to expect'.

Let's start with 'Others'. They are not everyone around you, not everyone you meet. They are those special people in your Life whom you Love and who claim to Love you. Be it your Friends, Family, Better-half or the Night watchman in your Apartment. If they claim to care about you, they should and must stand up to your expectations and you have the full right to expect from them, and so do they.

Now comes the question, What to expect ? Well, as long as you are not expecting insanities like Stars, Moon and Magical Herbs from the Himalayas etc. you are on the right track. If you expect them to run on your commands or do everything according to your wish, you are wrong. If you expect them to laugh with you when you are right and laugh with you even when you are wrong, you are wrong. Actually, it's not always the unfulfilled expectation that hurts, it's actually your over-the-moon expectations that hurt, you hurt yourself, you are to blame for your own misery. This is how things work and this is what makes sense. If you are living your life on the above lines, you don't have the effing right to claim that expectations hurt.

Having said that, what if even your most genuine expectations are not answered, time and again. Blimey, it's time you realized that the person whom you thought to be your closest one, wasn't actually. You made a wrong decision, you chose the wrong person, you prioritized all the wrong relationships. Perhaps, it's the time to let them go. Or if they are too close to you, so close that you can't even imagine letting them go then keep them and suffer, cause they are your weakness. No matter how many times, your expectations are met or not, you won't let them go, irrespective of whether it hurts or not.

Besides, you have the full right now to expect something good from me since you landed here. You were right to expect and it's my fault if i haven't satisfied you enough. Having said that, the fact remains that this is my place, Bitches! I get to write what i want. But without wax, i hope this made some sense in your life.

Also, this was just an attempt to write a post in this otherwise dormant blog. I have stopped writing poems because classes are over and i am unable to find any time to waste on rhyming words. so, thanks for bearing with this rather subtle post, especially since today is 14th Feb, Happy Valentine's Day Guys!

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Playing in my Head - Too many songs, leave it. Enjoy and Cheers...

IIT,NIT...blah blah blah....lets go play cricket :)

well,this is an entry that i made in a word file when i was in class 9 and it was november i guess.since then,the next few lines had quietly slept in my folder named NILAY fully secured with a 16 letter long password !!! i guess now its time for it to wake up and take shelter in this blog till the time fate chooses.
and pls,just keep in mind that this was written by me when i was 15 yrs old,quite young and free,much free than i am now,free from everything that binds me now.so here it goes.....

It was a five day tour,and it was sponsored by international RYLA or rotary club.it was known as Rotary Youth Leadership Awards.and my first tour out of Jamshedpur,my place and that too without my parents,I was too excited to think anything else.last year also one same event was organised but it focused on adventurous activities and was held in a "naxal prone area" , as it was put by my family and I was not allowed to go,but this year it aimed on personality development,ethics and all those crap.Though the topics were pretty much boring or as it seemed to be but I was not going to miss my first all alone trip that too outside bihar,jharkand.The previous year many students of my class had gone for RYLA but this year it was only me and one of my friend GAUTAM.well,the other guys and galz gave a pretext that now they were in class 9 and were supposed to study as studies are now suddenly more important because we are in higher classes,things are not the same now.well,I could never understand how suddenly everyone had changed so drastically.suddenly there was a increase in seriousness among my friends and they were joining tuition for almost all the subjects.well,I could not understand why.sometimes,when we used to sit during recess in a group,I could not understand the topic of discussion.i managed to catch only a few words like IIT and NIT,but i could never understand who they were exactly.so,I generally used to move away from them and join others,sometimes playing cricket or sometimes playing “truth or dare” or sometimes chatting on all those topics except “study”,the enemy of the YOUTH of india.anything new you try to do,the first stone in your path comes in the form of “study”,and everything gets stuck where it started.matters really worsen if you are from Jamshedpur,better known as TATAnagar after the leading steel company TATA STEEL,which is placed here.the first and the last thing in the mind of a child here is ENGINEERING.its not their fault though,they all have only seen one thing since they were born , ENGINEERS.and i was not an exception,I was one of them,and I really liked engineering and wanted to be one,one of the reason being my love for physics but the main reason being that........

and it goes on for about 10-15 lines more.but what i wanted to say was that....this kid mentioned above soon fell into the same trap...the trap which he hated the most at that time....the trap that took away those wonderful breaks during class hours(when we played cricket),the trap that tried to capture his freedom....the same trap.i mean,sooner or later,i too found myself working my ass off to get into IIT,NIT etc....yeah,working my ass off to fall into the same trap that i once despised.And people say life is fun,maybe it is,but its not way that 15 year old boy would have ever wished it to be,NEVER....and hey....THE RACE FOR THOSE IIT,NIT etc STILL CONTINUESSSSS....so,now who wants to play cricket,anyone ?!!?!!?!!?!!? ;-)